basically, just writting about my day&ranting because i need to get stuff out someway or another aaahahaa.

right now i'm amazingly obsessed w/breathe carolina. i just got their shirt in the mail a couple days ago but it's like 15 sizes too big :/ owell..today i also attempted to ask josh if he thought about going back out w/me but he was all "i'll call yoo." &he left, to go home :/ that made e feel kinda stupid, i'm not even sure if he heard me but i'll keep my fingers crossed. last week he told me he still likes me&thinking about going back out w/me&grr. i'm just so confused with him xD

anyway. me&dominick started car pulling today. he drove himself, his grandpa&lil brother&me to his grandpa's house where my mums gunna pick me up. &he gave me a sugar cookie when we got there&i started eating it, but when i turned around to say hi to his grandma i hadda mouth full of cookie&cookie crumbs all over my face xD

ugh i need to go to the jeffree star concert&brokencyde concert!!! i'm trying to get josh to come w/me, cause he likes BC..but i dunno. josh doesn't like jeffree star. but i've already made up my mind that he had to be there weith me&nothings gunna stop me.

grrrr. josh gave this girl a piggyback ride today. grrrrrrrrrrrrr!! but i think it's okay, because this girl is one of joshies friends girlfriends..hmm...it still made me jealous )': idk why i love that boy so much. ughhh. we had this assembly about like collage or something&i sat like two seats away from josh...i coulda sat right next to him, but i was too nervous. &he looked at me like he expected me/wanted me to sit right by him. hmm..stupid me. i still talked to him during the assembly but whatever. it's all good i guess..

i other news joe is cute&david touches me alot..can't say i don't like it though :D

it'll take forever to feel like myself again.

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 i am a trainwreck.

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